Today I know how does it feel when your inbox doesn't get even a simple hi/hello msg from anyone.... Am I same guy who used to receive 10's of personal mails almost daily, now not even a single forwarded mail come in months. No-one ready to talk to you, noone will listen to you, you are left alone with your explanations which noone will ever understand. whatif they understand tomorrow, will they be able fill in this gap.... never
I just dont' know if the entire world is like that or it was a special treatment just for me.. I dont' know if my ways were right or wrong.. but my motive was correct. Everyone I talk to seems suspicious. Is it the height of depression? I know I'm right, but I cant' make anyone understand..and so I'm out. I remember those days when I used to draft beautiful emails just to send to my friends, It was always time consuming as I always used to upload the pics again to some reliable image hosting service so that my mails will remain beautiful for years.... and now my same friends dont' consider me worth to receive their mails. and if someone talks to me it looks like a mercy feeling. I have done whatever I could do to prove myself but are they worthy enough to be my friends.
I'm just a normal human being & I accept that I too can be at fault, but if they really considered me their friend; wasn't it their responsibility to tell where I was wrong. but they didn't care for it.
Today I really feel there's noone beside me but still I wont' turn to those people who have already proved how good friends they were. better to die alone rather having false friends. I'm still not defeated, I'll fight till they understand and they will have to regret loosing a friend like me.... this is a promise to myself.